Hey everyone, it has been a long time since I last made a blog post, it’s been just over a year since I went on my storm chasing trip. 2020 has been a very weird year. I don’t think anyone could have predicted a pandemic of this proportion and it is kind of surreal to say the least. I’ve been wanting to write about beginning my plunge into spirituality.
Back in February, just before the pandemic spread into the US, I became interested in trying to sort our religion and spirituality. It’s one of those things that I have wanted to explore but at the same time never had much time for. I just knew that a lot of what people consider “normal” just seemed foreign to me.
A little bit of background about me. I didn’t grow up in a religious household, we didn’t go to church. That is not to say I didn’t have exposure to religion at all. I mean we were told about heaven and hell and the ten commandments and so on. I was also exposed to other things like one time we had Mormons come to the house when we lived in Ohio. So my sister and I got to learn about the Book of Mormon and yes they really do ride bicycles wearing khaki shorts and a tie, in case you thought that was a joke.
I think of the more important things that I was exposed to was Wicca. Now, for those of you reading this and are Christian you were probably told that Wiccans worship Satan — this is completely and utterly false. I won’t spend any time explaining what Wiccans believe as I don’t practice Wicca and what a Wiccan believes does vary person to person. Now I was quite young when I was exposed so a lot of things seemed silly, like casting spells while other things just went over my 12 year old head. That being said I do think it was good be exposed to different ideas, sort of like being at the buffet and trying out a little of this and a little of that.
So up to this point in my life I haven’t practiced anything. I never felt a connection to going to church and honestly my experience with attending a regular church service was anything but comfortable. So I started doing some research into Paganism. One book I read that is unbiased about Paganism from an outsiders’ point of view is “Paganism: An Introduction to Earth-based Religions” by Joyce and River Higginbotham. I think it gave a good overview about what Paganism is and what it isn’t. Of course having read that it does leave me wondering what my next steps should be. I do feel that this is a life long process and that the answers just don’t come to you. Afterall, my perspective of the world has changed greatly since I was a kid. What I think is very much different than what it was 20 years ago when I was still in school.
Here’s what I do know, the divine is real, I have no question about that. What it is and everything else, that’s what I have to figure out for myself. I started looking into Paganism which is an umbrella term, similar to Christianity. Generally speaking Paganism consists of all non-Abrahamic religions. I was drawn to Paganism largely to my exposure to Wicca and the many different perspectives about how the universe works. It is humbling to think about such things. One of the big drivers for me is simply wondering about what happens to us, our consciousness, after death and the question that is always asked, why are we here?
I do want to write more about my experiences but one problem I seem to face when writing is getting off track and going on tangents I really didn’t intend to go on. Which means I have to go back and edit and try to cut much of it out.