I’m not sure if it is just me or if everyone experiences the realization about their health and how much it really matters. I used to smoke and I would think to myself “Oh, I’ll quit one of these days.” I pretty much thought it didn’t matter that much, like procrastinating with homework. The truth is, bad habits like smoking are slow and costly. You don’t notice in the moment what it has done to you. The other realization I have had is even though you can “heal” by quitting it never really leaves you, it scars you in a way, your body can recover yet you still pay the price. I feel like if I had never smoked that I might be faster a running, that I wouldn’t have started getting heart palpitations (which in my case appear to be harmless) or feel my heart skip. Maybe it is me but I feel even more mortal than I used to. Perhaps I’m just waking up to what life is really supposed to be about and that it is to be appreciated and therefore you are to live to the fullest. Not just doing things but to seek happiness and salvation where it comes from.